♥♥♥It's been a year since my life was changed!♥♥♥ If you want to read about what I experienced while having a stroke a year ago you can click here. Today I want to share an entry out of my personal journal. It’s a little more intimate then a normal blog entry but I feel so very moved emotionally.
March 15, 2013
This morning Johnny and I climbed to the top of a mountain by our house and spent the morning talking about the changes and blessings that came from having a stroke one year ago. He is my rock and strength and has been such a support and light to me throughout this past year.
It’s ironic that one of the main lessons we have had to learn is balance, not just physically but mentally and emotionally as well. I physically spent 8 of 12 months of the year last year out of balance and have found symbolism in how it has physically felt. It seems to be harder to identify a lack a balance in our world that personally surrounds us. But as I have experienced shifts in my physical balance as I get tired or worn down, I have found that like a physical change in balance happens, a lack of balance emotional and spiritually can cause us to hit walls or knock into people as well.
But that’s not the most dramatic shift we talked through today. We started our climb up this small mountain on a trail. A simple clear path that was easy to follow. We chatted and reminisced and enjoyed the sun. ♥♥♥The last time we hiked to the top of a mountain alone Johnny asked me to marry him!♥♥♥ We talked and moved our way up the trail.
I was very content to stay on the trail and enjoy this morning. We hadn’t’ been hiking long when Johnny stopped. I thought he just wanted me to drink some water and rest, but he looked at me and asked me to leave the trail and head straight up to the top of the mountain. I looked to the top and then to John and thought there is no way I can do that! As if he could read my thoughts he say, “Come on, I will help you up. We can take it at an easy pace.” And with that, we were on our way up a rugged, rocky mountain.
We stopped a few times, turning and looking at how far we had come. At first we could see a portion of our house and our neighborhood and down the mountainside we had climbed, then we began to see more of our neighborhood and a portion of the mountain next to us opened up.
I told Johnny as we hiked further how emotional this week has been for me because I realized that the stroke was a forced change in our lives. It was hard. Then I talked about our goals we have recently been discussing, the lives we want to impact, the good we want to do, the gifts we want to leave our children. These things also will and are requiring change. Big change! And it’s scary to change! But this time it’s a change that we are choosing. This journey we have had recovering from a stroke has been a hard change, but SO WORTH IT!
We arrived at the top we looked around at the breathtaking views we were surrounded by. Valleys and mountains were open to us. We saw lakes, rivers, mountains, communities, and different paths up the different mountains. Our view had been significantly broadened. Our perspective was spectacular! We now could see so much more. And it was BEAUTIFUL.
We sat here at the top of this mountain and recorded these feelings in our journals. We cried together and told each other how thankful we are for our individual strengths. We are meant for each other, we were made for each other!
Probably one of the most valuable lessons I have learned during this past year is that WE CAN DO HARD THINGS. We have experienced this in a forced way due to the stroke, but that has taught us that when we choose to change and grow, we can do it too! Even if it feels uncomfortable and it seems impossible! You can do it and when you begin that journey to the top of a mountain your whole perspective changes and you begin seeing things you never knew were even there!
Remember, “Everything you want is just outside your comfort zone.” Robert Allen
I never imagined hiking to the top of a mountain today. I am ready to make every day count! I am ready to set higher goals and embrace change. I am so thankful for the blessing of a balance!
♥♥♥♥♥ Thank you everyone who has been here loving and supporting our little family throughout this past year. My heart is filled with gratitude, love, and a stronger desire to serve!♥♥♥♥♥